Most people like to have their quiet time with the Lord in the morning, but I always do it at night. I am a night owl, so I usually have more energy at the end of the day. Plus, I have had trouble sleeping for years and spending time with God before bed helps to ease my mind and comfort me so that I can fall asleep.
Yesterday, I had a huge to-do list and I was still running around until right before I started my quiet time. My mind was buzzing with all the things I am working on and the thing I have yet to do, and as I prayed, I found my mind wandering.
Each time I noticed it, I fussed at myself to focus. I was getting frustrated with myself. I found myself thinking “Why can’t I just focus on spending time with God? No wonder I can’t get anything done. What’s wrong with me?“
I finished praying and started reading my bible. Gently, sweetly, the Lord told me what was wrong with me: I am not perfect.
Well, duh! I know I am not perfect! You don’t have to remind me of that, God!
But last night, I did need the reminder. You see, the reason I was getting frustrated with myself was because I was trying so hard to be a good Christian girl who does meaningful work and volunteers and wears cute but modest clothes and has the deepest, most intimate times of fellowship with God. I want to do it all, and then I get mad at myself for falling short of perfection.
The truth is that we all “have sinned and fall short of the glory of God” (Romans 3:23).
Here is the good news: we do not have to be perfect. We are going to fall short. God uses those imperfections for his glory.
I know we have all heard 2 Corinthians 2:9, but it’s worth repeating: “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
Grace covers our biggest regrets, our worst secrets, and the darkest parts of our pasts. But grace also covers our everyday shortcomings. Grace covers the little things that we beat ourselves up over. Grace covers us when we fall short.
So next time you feel yourself getting frustrated and disappointed in your shortcomings, remember that God’s grace covers you, and that maybe, you should give yourself a little grace too.
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