Let me start with this, I am not a writer by any means… I was homeschooled K-12. If you had asked me back in high school if I would ever consider homeschooling my own kids I would probably have said no. I am now married and have one on the way! Ask me that same question now and I say, “Absolutely, I am.”
I was the kid that would throw my books across the room and slammed my door because I was so mad when I couldn’t understand something. Especially math, you can ask my mother! For these reasons growing up and getting married scared me. All I told myself was, “You’re not good at math, you’re not good at reading and you can barely spell. Why would someone want you?” Come to find out later in high school my brother and I where tested for Dyslexia. Sure enough we both had it. Which explained the whole “I hate math and reading and I can’t spell” thing. My brain tends to move faster then my eyes and hands, so I very often miss words when typing my blogs and hand writing. I can see one word but say another and I switch letters around on the page all the time!
Yes it scares me to death the thought of being the one to teach my kids right from wrong, math, reading, how to respect their elders and ones over them, how to love others and most important Jesus Christ! But all that comes with leaving your comfort zone. Because if we never did, we would get no where!
Story time… Haley asked me if I would be apart of the Woven together team back when we first started, so going on 2 years. The thought of being apart of a ministry made me really excited because at the time I was praying for something to be apart of. But what made me the most nervous was the fact that I would have to spell all these words, send off my blog to Gaby (our wonderful editor) and hopefully she would be able to read and understand what I was saying!!
After much prayer I told Haley yes and I have never looked back because no matter how many people read my blog (or even understand it), I left my comfort zone with writing and God continues to surprise me every time.
Now I try to look at this new stage of life saying, “ Who cares if I mess up and fall? I didn’t come into this world knowing everything.” Thank you Lord for grace and second chances!
Back to the top… As I have my own baby on the way, I tell myself that we will learn together, forgive, have patience and through a lot of prayer this baby will be just fine and learn a lot from its crazy Mom and Dad. 😉
25 Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.” 28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.” 29 “Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!” 31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?” 32 And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33 Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”
God reaches out to save us even if we are afraid of the wind and rain.