How many times have we prayed asking God to teach us to trust Him more or teach us to have more faith?
I know I’ve prayed that many times and sometimes I just feel like I’m waiting and waiting and I never get an answer.
I have been reading in Mark and really trying to grasp the details of Jesus’ ministry. Chapters 6 and 8 caught my attention because this is where you find the two miracles in which Jesus fed thousands of people using basically nothing.
The disciples doubted Jesus’ ability to get enough food for these people in both of these situations. Honestly, I probably would’ve done the same thing if I was in their place. It would throw me off to see that many hungry people in front of me, while holding in my hands an amount of food that wouldn’t even fill the disciples’ bellies.
As I was reading, I saw something truly awesome in the text. During both of these feeding miracles, Jesus blessed the food and gave it to the disciples, who then distributed it to thousands of people. This is mind blowing, and I’ll tell you why.
The disciples were struggled with doubt so often during Jesus’ ministry, and in these cases, Jesus literally let them hand out the miracle. They had miracles passing through their hands every time they handed out another piece of bread, and they didn’t even realize it. They followed Jesus because they believed in Him. Jesus was trying to teach them and disciple them, but their growth was stunted by unbelief.
I thought to myself, how many times do I have miracles literally in my hands or within my reach and not even know it? It’s because I don’t trust God enough or let Him work because of my fear. It’s always scary to trust something you can’t see. This could look like trying to find enough food to feed thousands (twice!), getting out of a boat to walk on water, or firmly living out the Christian principles you say that you believe in. It will be hard but it’s worth it.
God is readily teaching His children to trust more and more. He provides even when we don’t ask. This applies to learning to trust too. He teaches us trust whether we ask for it or not. While asking God to teach us trust definitely invites more situations to come, situations will still come if we don’t ask for them, because we are His children and He is maturing us spiritually.
This isn’t a shocking thing that I learned this week but really, I have been moved by it.
It was re-establishing the fact that God is super involved in each one of our lives (because I know we all tend to forget sometimes). It was learning that God WANTS me to mature in my faith and grow to be the best I can be through His power. It was learning that even though I am afraid to step out and trust Him, He is all-powerful and able, so I have nothing to fear. He asked the disciples, “How many loaves do you have?” Both times they replied with a single digit number, but just because it looks insignificant doesn’t mean that it is. God is able to take the smallest thing and create a miracle out of it. We just have to have our eyes open to see it. God is putting miracles right in front of you, are you seeing them or are you missing them?
God is able to provide and He’s showing you that. He can show you even more if you would just ask. Christianity is not easy, but it is worth it. Christians tend to put up a fuss when it comes to trusting God, but it’s in those times that we miss the miracles. Don’t listen to the lies of Satan or the lies of your flesh. Open your heart and soul to trusting God. Open your eyes to see the miracles right in front of you.
How many loaves?
More than enough.
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