I have started writing this, and it is January 16, 2017. You will not be reading this until March 15, but I want to start writing this blog right now because I want you to see first hand how God works in our lives for our good and His glory.
Ten days ago, January 6, my boyfriend broke up with me. The last thing I want from this is pity. That sounds harsh, I know, but it is true. I will not lie, ten days ago was extremely hard. My heart was shattered and it felt like it was being torn right out of me. My body was physically and mentally weak that I could not cry anymore. When I tried to cry my body could not produce tears because I had no food or water in my system. I was not only mentally and physically weak but I was spiritually weak as well.
During this time, I was filled with fear, anxiety, confusion, stress, sadness, and so many other emotions. I woke up the next morning and said to myself, “This will not stop me from trusting God. I will not let something like this effect my health. I will push forward, and I WILL be okay.” I picked up my Bible and just started reading literally everything in it. Now what I am about to say, I want you to pay close attention to because this was the game changer for me.
I ran to God in order to seek His will for me. I did not seek God so that I could see MY will be done. You see, days before the breakup, I knew it was coming. During this time, I prayed to God asking, “Why not MY will God? Why not MY way? Things are going perfect MY way.” When we go to God in order to figure out a way to have our will be done, it ultimately robs us of the will God has planned for us. It also robs us of the joy God wants us to have because what we think our “perfect” will is, is not His perfect will. You will always hear people say this, “God’s will is better than anything we can ever imagine.” This is true. And until you truly accept that, I truly believe the healing in your heart will not begin to heal.
In order for us to heal and move forward, we have to trust God with EVERYTHING. I prayed everyday, “Father in Heaven, I know you have a plan for me and I trust it completely. Please take all of the fear, anxiety, and pain away and fill me with trust, faith, and joy.” I, of course, continued to pray for my boyfriend and I during this time because I still do have hope. But that is a story for another time, and frankly, him and I are not the focal point of this blog, God is.
God’s faithfulness is the point. The morning after the breakup, I read Matthew 17:20, which says, “He replied, ‘Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.’” This was my healing verse. I could not understand why all of this was happening but I had faith that God had a purpose for this.
January 16, 2017
I am doing a lot better. I have made it a habit to ALWAYS read my Bible at night and to read a Christian book. Right now, I am reading Mingling of Souls by Matt Chandler. I highly recommend it if you’re in a relationship, entering a relationship, or to just prepare yourself for when God does bring a significant other into your life.
For right now, I am going to sign off and I will come back to this blog and will update you on how God’s faithfulness has been working in my life. So until then, ta ta for now!
It has been nearly three weeks since I last wrote. I want to update you on God’s faithfulness. These past three weeks, God has put people into my life to pour words of wisdom and encouragement into my life. People like my professor, friends from Bible study, parents, siblings, and absolutely random people who just so happen to ask me about my life. God’s faithfulness has stayed constant because we serve a constant God. A God who will never abandon us. A God who desires us to be happy and full of joy.
I want to encourage you to always seek your church community for guidance, not in just times of trials, but always. God wants us to come together in fellowship, to encourage one another, to keep one another accountable. I want to emphasize the importance of church to you right now. “Not going to church does not NOT make me a Christian,” a saying that is so often said. I believe I am guilty of saying this at one point in my life. Without the church community, who are you seeking counseling from, who are you seeking accountability from, who is encouraging? God created the church so we can come together in fellowship.
With that being said, throughout these past three weeks, the church community has poured wisdom and truth into my heart. The fear, anxiety, sadness, and everything else has been ripped from me because I know who is always going to be there: God.
I want to let you know that God’s faithfulness has continued to pour over me. If you are going through something and you are having a hard time seeing God’s faithfulness, I want to encourage with these few points:
- Prayer is more powerful than you can ever imagine.
Psalm 107:28-30 Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble, and he delivered them from their distress. He made the storm be still, and the waves of the sea were hushed. Then they were glad that the waters were quiet, and he brought them to their desired haven.
- Seek God’s will, not yours.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
- Get plugged into a church where people can keep you accountable and pour wisdom into you.
Hebrews 13:17: “Obey your leaders and submit to them, for they keep watch over your souls as those who will give an account. Let them do this with joy and not with grief, for this would be unprofitable for you.”
God is faithful. He always was faithful. And he will continue to be faithful for the rest of our lives.
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